Today in church we heard from Dave Kohout. Dave is a speaker for Talk Is Cheap which is a “non-profit organization that focuses on building character, establishing confidence and providing hope in the lives of young people everywhere.” Dave talked about our impact on the people around us, and that we all were created for a purpose. Fulfulling that purpose has repercussions on the people we come in contact with. However, many people live and die without finding out their purpose. At the end of your life, do you want to stand before God knowing that you squandered your life away and didn’t begin to live your life for Him?
I’ve always thought that I had it easier than most. I knew at a very young age that I was to be a wife and a mother. I never questioned that calling. It was as if when God breathed life into my soul, His breath carried that purpose, and I instinctively knew from the time I was little. When I was finishing high school and everyone was deciding what they were going to do, I already knew that I was to be a wife and mother. My husband and I were already dating and planning to marry when he was through with college. I was expected to do something in the meantime so I began to attend college. I decided since I liked typing and office work that I would get an Associates in Secretarial Studies. However, I also knew that I could be anything I wanted. I upgraded a lot of my classes. Instead of Business Math, I elected to take Calculus I and II – yes I was the odd person who upgraded my classes. Instead of Business Machines I took a Computer Programming class, and instead of Office Bookkeeping, I upgraded to Business Accounting. At the time, I didn’t realize that I would use all of those skills to help my husband years later in his business.
It wasn’t until much later that I came to realize that even in the mundane details of life that I was having a lasting impact. As I was meeting people, taking classes, and having experiences my influence extended to those around me. Ultimately as a wife and mother, my greatest impact has been on my family – my husband and children. The impressions I make extend from that point to my children’s friends and parents of those friends. Since I homeschool, I have a voice in the homeschool community. I can also be significant to the people I meet through clubs, sports, and other organizations.
Sometimes God expands your sphere of influence through circumstances you have no control over. Moses had a burning bush encounter with God. At that point he could have chosen to walk away and go back and live as an Egyptian. Job had a series of events occur that seemed horrific; he could have turned his back on God and cursed Him, but he continued to worship God. Joshua, Jonah, Peter, Saul – the list goes on and on of people who could have turned their backs, ignored their calling and lived for themselves, but because of their faithfulness, they turned toward God and fulfulled God’s purpose in their life.
Sometimes you have a turning point in your life and it becomes necessary to make a crucial decision in the way you should go. Knowing that your husband has died, and yet is living, has become one of those turning points. There really is no way to go back to life before that day. It has become impossible to pretend that God didn’t perform a miracle. It also is impossible to live life the same way as I was living before April 30, 2015.
“Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”,
I am sure of my purpose; that has not changed. I am still called to be a wife and a mother. I am still called to support my husband. I still know that I am to continue to homeschool Dash and Jack-Jack. I know that God has planted the love of all things Disney into Jack-Jack’s heart, so that ultimately continues to be an important aspect of my teaching and molding him. I know that many things have not changed. The day-to-day living is similar, but yet it is all different.
I still know that I am a Child of the Most High God; I am fearfully and wonderfully made. The only thing that has changed is my heart. Life is fleeting and fragile; I cannot waste another moment of another day. I need to be able to stand before my God at the end of my life, however soon that may be, and know that I lived out my purpose, and I know that as I wake each day, God will direct and guide my steps to leading out that purpose. At the end of my life, I long to hear those words from Matthew 25:23:
Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!